"In my world, there is no law against murder," Karla told Tahiri, her voice both hard and defiant. "We believe everything has a price, and what these things did you you racked up a debt they could never repay. And I'm glad you killed her, too. That wasn't murder, it was justice. That bitch was a mad dog. You don't try to reason with that, you can't force it to see the error of its ways. All you can do is put it down before it hurts someone you love."
Her voice softened. "Killing should never be easy, Tahiri. I think that when it is, you've lost something and regaining that part of you comes with a heavy price. I've killed. He was trying to...hurt me. Badly. He and his friends were trying to break me, and I killed him to protect myself. And even now, I stay up at night and question. Was I right to have done so? Was there another, better way? Am I a bad person for the part of me that was pleased by his death? Neither your joy nor your concern make you a bad person in this. It only proves your essential humanity."
"Fear, loss, rage, agony, confusion over your very self...She forced to to experience all of these. And yet, when it counted, you got control over yourself and you didn't harm the man who loved you. You kept your honor and your integrity, and even your empathy. For everything you lost, think of how much you kept."
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Date: 2009-06-19 06:13 pm (UTC)Her voice softened. "Killing should never be easy, Tahiri. I think that when it is, you've lost something and regaining that part of you comes with a heavy price. I've killed. He was trying to...hurt me. Badly. He and his friends were trying to break me, and I killed him to protect myself. And even now, I stay up at night and question. Was I right to have done so? Was there another, better way? Am I a bad person for the part of me that was pleased by his death? Neither your joy nor your concern make you a bad person in this. It only proves your essential humanity."
"Fear, loss, rage, agony, confusion over your very self...She forced to to experience all of these. And yet, when it counted, you got control over yourself and you didn't harm the man who loved you. You kept your honor and your integrity, and even your empathy. For everything you lost, think of how much you kept."